mother's day

i looked at my kids today,and felt so lucky.i mean don't get me wrong i feel lucky everyday.but today i felt so blessed that these 7 beautiful kids call me mom.i don't know how or why i was choosen, to have such truly goodhearted and beautiful kids.i feel so lucky and blessed.i feel god gave me such a wonderful,fullfilling life. i'm not sure i deserve it sometimes.and i get scared that i am going to wake up and it is all a dream.and sometimes i get anxiety,like i feel so blessed. i worry something bad is going to happen.and my dream will become a nightmare. i know that probably sounds dumb,but i can't help it.i think it is easier sometimes,to always see the bad part of everything,but you know what sometimes we have to look to the good parts. and sometimes we all need a wakeup call, that life can always be worse. like loosing a spouse or child.
so that has been my outlook lately. so i have ot ride the bus, you know what i'm lucky that i live somewhere where i can access a bus.and my husband can still get to work everyday.and we are blessed that we still have a job for my husband to go to.in this unstable economy.thank you god. you are good.