my baby girl is 13 today

shania turned 13 today,i'm sad and happy. sad because of all the years that have flown by. and happy to see her grow into a beautiful young woman.i'm excited to see what the future holds and just know she is going to do something great with her life,no matter which path she chooses.i see so much of myself in her,it brings back a lot of memories of my childhood. i want to be a good mom to her,just like my mom was to me.my mom's shoes are hard to fill and i find myself questioning my parenting sometimes.shania and i talk a lot when everyone else is asleep,we talk about my mom and my childhood.and we talk about our fears hers of loosing grandma and mine of loosing my mom.shania is so warm and caring and such a little lady. i am so proud of her,i want us always to be close if i have learned anything about life it is so short and you have to make the most of each day.because unfortunately as i have learned there is no promise of tomorrow.i had the best time with shania the other night,we stayed up late drinking ice tea and looking through old photo's from her babyhood and mine.i feel so blessed to have such a beautiful daughter.

i love early mornings

as i sit here awake and all of my house is still quiet,i love this time of morning i can drink my coffee and enjoy the silence.but i also love it because i can watch my kids sleep and look at their peaceful faces.before the chaos begins,people ask me all of the time how i do it with 7 kids and stay sane. i usually answer them with who says i am sane lol.you know when i was growing up i always knew i wanted to be a mom,i was the neighborhood girl that everyone asked to babysit for them and i just loved being around children.but there was no set amount of kids i wanted i would always joke and say 12.but i did know i wanted a large family,there are so many good times and yes some bad times.but i wouldnt trade it for anything.my mom says i thrive on chaos and maybe she is right.because i couldnt imagine my life without any of them.some days i try to picture how my life would be without so many kids and i just cant i would be so bored.each one of them bring something so special to my life.charlie is my sweet,sensitive guy who would do anything for anyone.shania is my strong opinioned,independant girl who i love sometimes when everyone else is sleeping me and her will talk and talk.madeline is my little silly girl,she can make you laugh and laugh with the things she comes up with.riley is all boy and he keeps me hopping and makes life very interesting around here lol.JJ is such a funny boy and so serious he wants to know about everything and always keeps me thinking about things.sage is such a lover he likes to be held and snuggled he definately makes me see things from his world and its incredible.and little tucker is such a corker he keeps us all on our toes and demands attention he refuses to be ignored he just fits in so well and makes his presence known wherever he goes
life is good

one of those days

do you ever have one of those days where everything goes wrong,that was my day today.everything i touched broke and everything i picked up i dropped.then my vacumn cleaner quit and my dryer stopped working at the same time.i had to go get a new vacumn and dryer all in the same day.our dryer was on the way out but man why today of all days.shania ended up in the ER today with a stomach ache and they are treating her for the campylobacter again and my hubby missed work.i am just going to go to bed and pretend this day never happened LOL

summer

well i made it through the graduations.now summer is here, we have a lot of work to do this summer.replacing floors,painting,redecorating the kids room.
we also have some landscape work to do outside and i want to buy one of those quickset pools.we will put a fence with a padlock around the pool because i am a nervous nelly lol. i also want to put up a screened in sitting area and a swingset.now if only i was rockefeller it would be so much easier lol.and i have to start working on those mile long school supply lists.with 6 kids in school this year it is going to be expensive.i am going to resort to be the mom in walmart fighting with the other mom's over the last 20 cent gluestick.because they each need about a trillion dollars in supplies.now i am going to be watching the paper like a hawk looking for the deals and camping out in the store parking lot until the store opens lol.i always laughed at those women now i am no longer laughing.i will proudly race into a store and grab the deals.
lord what has my life become.